A Student’s Story, Part 1
November 16, 2016 - In House Topics - 0 Comments
A Student’s Story, Part 1
Not too long ago I had the privilege of listening to a lecture given by my teacher and mentor Dr. Judy Redman at The His House/New Creation Corporate Office. She was discussing the epidemic of the “Failure to Launch” syndrome and I didn’t need to look too far to see a perfect example.
Going into treatment I had lost everything: my career, my self-identity, my self-respect, and respect from others. I walked in broken, going through a media-frenzied court case, and willing to do anything to make my life better. I spent eight months in treatment and left feeling like a completely different person. The problem was, I left without a specific plan. I went home knowing what I wanted but having no idea how to get it. Each day that passed I felt myself regressing and turning more and more into the person I was before I entered treatment. I lacked structure, hope, and purpose in my life and felt myself existing rather than actually living. After spending so much time in treatment away from my friends and family and working so hard on myself how could this be happing? How could I be failing…AGAIN?
I remember Dr. Redman asking in her lecture, “Treatment complete; Now what?” Good question! I had no idea. But I did know that I couldn’t continue down the same road I was on very much longer. I knew I had to makes some changes and start something new but the fear of change paralyzed me. I had worked in the same field my entire career and the thought of having to give that up and start over was terrifying. I could either stay stuck or walk through my fear. I knew I had to make a choice to start living my life because no one was going to live it for me.
I was introduced to new Creation College through a good friend I met in treatment. She knew I was thinking about going back to school and mentioned we should do the program together. I looked up the college online. The next day I was on the phone and within the week I was enrolled. I knew if I hesitated I would find any excuse to change my mind. Boy, am I glad I didn’t hesitate.
The moment I walked into New Creation College and met with Dr. Redman and Vel I knew that I had made the right decision. They believed in me before I was able to believe in myself and gave me hope at a time when hope was gone. I remember, embarrassed and crying, telling Dr. Redman some of my story and her looking up at me with compassion and love. She stood up, gave me a hug, and said to me, “I have big plans for you.” I was shocked! This woman that I just met had big plans for me when I couldn’t even see a future for myself?! But at that moment, for the first time in a long time, I could see a very small light at the end of my very dark, very long tunnel. I knew I was supposed to be here at this school. I knew I was supposed to be here with these people. God was working in my life and I was going to let him.